Моя мама пахнет

Моя мама пахнет духами,
и зовущей яркой мечтой.
Она даже пахнет словами,
что когда-то сказаны мной.

Моя мама пахнет надеждой,
от неё веет словом «люблю».
Её запах с нотками нежности
и бельём на весеннем ветру.

Моя мама пахнет обедами
и глубокими разговорами,
она пахнет рабочими средами
и собраниями школьными.

Она пахнет внимательным взглядом
и читает слова между строк.
Она всеми объятиями сразу
пахнет за весь прошлый год.

Она пахнет прочитанной книгой,
и пушистым рыжим котом,
и размокшей от ливня глиной,
и синицами под окном.

Её мягкие руки в морщинах
пахнут чёрной и влажной землёй.
Она пахнет всем этим миром,
и заботой её полон дом.

Моя мама пахнет цветами,
и большой и дружной семьёй.
И когда она внуков встречает,
наверно, пахнет и мной.

23.10.2025

Time

Time is a rusty horseshoe
carrying past and future too

Time is a cup
if it should break
you would see cracks
that it has kept
inside of it
hidden from view
carrying past and future too

Time is that cat
that never is
or always is
you don’t glimpse

Time's constantly inside of you 
carrying past and future too

21.10.2025

Self-Portrait

I'm a gray hedgehog with spikes inside.
So different from the world outside.
I'm a victim of serious, sad mornings.
You’ve called me perfectly “anonymous”.

My fingers reach, still warm from sleep,
for things the morning shadows keep
an open book, my glasses, water —
searching for things that float and totter.

The mirror waits — its silver gleam
reflects the ghost of who I seem.
My hair uncombed, my eyes turned blue —
insomnia has touched them too.

A thought then flashes through my mind:
this isn’t just a morning kind.
I walk toward the window’s breath,
where air smells with life and death.

It’s thick with rain, with earth and stone,
a scent of distance — damp, alone.
From rooftops, raindrops start to fall,
and whisper tales along the wall.

The northern wind lifts darkened leaves,
but none take flight — the motion grieves.
Too wet to soar, they drag instead,
their whispers soft, like words unsaid.

The light cuts through — a silver thread,
where motes of dust dance, pale and dead.
And in the mirror’s quiet view,
I see the morning — and me, too.

I'm a gray hedgehog with spikes inside.
So different from the world outside.
I'm a victim of serious, sad mornings.
You’ve called me perfectly “anonymous”.

19.10.2025

The Mare of the Moonlight

In the hush of January frost,
The pale mare treads where shadows lost.
Her mane tangled with icicle stars,
She whispers old songs of scars.

February bends the frozen trees,
They creak like bones in winter’s breeze.
The mare bows low to the earth so still,
And hums the secrets of the hill.

March awakens in dripping streams,
A chorus of snow’s fading dreams.
The mare leaps high through misty rain,
Her hooves beat tales of loss and gain.

April blooms with gentle rain,
She runs through fields of tender grain.
Whispers of rebirth cling to her mane,
And green shoots crawl from the thawing plain.

May hums in meadows, bright and wide,
The mare leaps where violets hide.
The air is sweet, the day is long,
And she hums an ever-ancient song.

June drips sunlight like golden honey,
Warmth fills the days so thick and sunny.
Through forest shadows, deep and green,
She gallops where the world has been.

July roars with thunder across the sky,
Lightning dances, clouds drift high.
The mare bows to the summer storm,
Her spirit wild, untamed, and warm.

August fields bend beneath the breeze,
She wanders past the buzzing bees.
Ripe earth heavy, rivers full,
She drinks the currents, pure and cool.

September leaves turn fire and gold,
The mare trots slow through hills grown old.
She hums of harvest, endings near,
And songs of earth she longs to hear.

October fog creeps through haunted glades,
She moves beneath the amber shades.
Autumn breathes on her every stride,
Between life and death, she cannot hide.

November mornings, mist and bare,
She whispers tales into cold air.
Spirits gather as nights grow long,
And she hums the mournful, solemn song.

December snow falls soft, a silver veil,
The mare trots where the moon is pale.
Through all the months she’s wandered wide,
Now rests beneath the starry tide.

13.10.2025

Kolodancing

Do you know this time —
between middle August and autumn?
It’s a dainty line,
before wool replaces cotton.
Nights come earlier, day by day;
I sip my tea — you play.
Your melody pulls me back:
I am five, leaves fall, ice crystals crack.
The sky, as always, fiercer than before.
You play “Devojačko kolo”, more and more.
A lake sleeps deep inside the blaze —
Leaves burn and fall, while forest sways.
In this cold season of glowing fire —
We are Kolodancing, we are Entire.

11.10.2025

Gray Hedgehog

I'm a gray hedgehog with spikes inside.
So different from the world outside.
I'm a victim of serious, sad mornings.
You’ve called me perfectly “anonymous”.

I write my poems every season.
A little trifle, perhaps no reason.
You may not read them, think them small,
But still, you love me, most of all.

11.10.2025

Хрупкость

Растерянность.
Капли стучат по окну.
Я, возможно, к рассвету засну.
Тишина.
Усталость. 
Принятие —
мой естественный способ
изъятия
смысла из боли.
Придаю ритм тому,
что иначе —
было бы мне одному
невыносимо.
И, знаешь,
даже немного прикольно —
видеть,
как я засну.

11.10.2025

5th Season (War edition)

Summer is burning,
Autumn is closing,
Winter is coming,
Spring is dozing.
And I am never waiting
for the fifth season —
the one unending,
for some reason.

Too much noise
through the wires of the world —
sirens, prayers,
and smoke unfurled.
Bombs bloom high
in the broken sky,
and death crawls slow
where children hide.
February’s breath
has lasted three years,
still cold in the lungs,
still tasting of fears.
Shadows waltz
in a red-lit glare,
and horror counts
each whispered prayer.
I turn off the screen,
but it hums in my head —
thousands still alive,
thousands dead.

Come —
to my voice,
where ashes bloom instead of flowers,
where the wind turns woolen
and silence towers,
and all tears of the world
gather into one hold.

And the fifth season —
keeps staining —
for no reason.

10.10.2025

Fifth Season

Winter is coming…
Spring is following…
Summer is reigning…
Autumn is closing…
And I am waiting
for the fifth season
that isn’t coming
for some reason.

Too much noise
flows through the wires of the world —
I am cooked, I am hurled.
I turn off the screen,
let it fall into the void,
to avoid
its relentless gleam.

Come —
to my voice,
where ashes bloom instead of flowers,
where the wind turns woolen 
and silence towers,
and all the waters of the earth
gather into a single hole.
I am the fifth season —
and I come,
for some reason.

10.10.2025

Autumn

The tops of trees are crowned with fire:
yellow, red — their brief desire.
Leaves falling, falling, one by one,
the year grows old, the warmth is done.

A sadness pulls them, soft, profound,
down, down — to meet the ground.
They don’t expect miracles anymore —
everything’s happened all before.

The wind sweeps them through fields and sand,
to borders cold, to no-man’s land.
It whispers low, with voice of bone,
“You fall — but never fall alone.”

The earth receives them, dark, wind-blown,
all that returns — will feel like home.
In sacred sleep, they dream again —
forever, ever — leaf and rain.

09.10.2025